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Name: nattie
Gender: Female
Interests: ice cream! ice cream! ice cream! ice cream!
Expertise: tv junkie. magazine addict. photo whore. expert eavesdropper. megaextravagant shopper.
Occupation: president of the mean club
Message: message me
Member Since:
6/22/2006
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| I know i haven't been blogging in a while. If i'm not wrong it's been more than 6 months. The past 6 months have been shit, and i shan't elaborate any further. Anyway i'm MOVING! that is if i ever decide to start a new blog on livejournal. Actually i created a livejournal account for the sake of shopping sprees. Recently i've been so broke, i'm kind of left with $20 for the rest of the month. My mom did give me extra money this morning, (i refused to tell here how much i have left - ironically, i'm telling the whole world right now - but she won't know. :) ), but i going to try to live on $20 for the rest of the month. It's possible. People in India lives on less than a dollar everyday. I don't know how they do it - they starve?, my heart feels for such lives - how then can I continue to take things for granted?
Anyway i made up my mind. I'm going to go to India for a mission trip. Honestly, i'm scared. But there's no harm in trying right? Just bite the bullet and go ahead with it. that's what i'm doing with my A levels. I know A levels isn't the most horrible thing in any person's life, but right now, it just seems like it is the most horrible thing in life, to me, at least. I keep telling myself that I'm not the only one in the world with problems, to stop getting too caught up in my own things! To be brutally honest, i'm scared to hell of my A levels. And if i go straight to design school, i would feel that my two years in JC would have been wasted (i could have entered with my O levels). I'm scared if i don't do well. I'm afraid to face myself then. And then again, i'm scared if i do well, because i won't know what course to choose. I'm terribly confused and i'm scared of everything else.
And if i never keep in contact with my classmates. I really won't know what to do. Then the two years spent in JC is the most horrifying experience i ever i had in my entire life. It seems like a complete waste of my time, of my life, driving me to exhuastion, depression and sadness.
And here's my brutally honest post. I never usually post my private life unless it's happy times or complains, if you realised.
I don't remember how i usually sign off anymore; fragments of my happy memories are fading away.
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| I have been up to so many things lately, i don't even know where to start!
Anyway recently i've been thinking of going for piano lessons twice a week. I won't mind being an eccentric (and very good, i shall say) pianist in the future - but being good requires a lot of hard work. And I was just thinking of learning the blues as well. There are so many things that i would like to do, you know, planning out my whole life. But i know that my plans won't exactly work out best for me. And I'm honestly afraid of what's going to happen in the future and of the coming As. It's like whenever any sec 4 says that they're afraid of their O levels, it'll just make me feel like screaming back, "OH NO! I'M TAKING MY A LEVELS THIS YEAR!" and i get so freaked out and shit.
Maybe i've come to a point where i'm doubting my own abilities. I know i should have the confidence. But i just can't stop looking at my circumstances and just being like that. And i really really really NEEEEEED SOME ADJUSTMENTS.
oh, stuff and bother,
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| hello.
Jacq bought a new camera the other day and brought it to school.
Right Before Assembly
Rachel, Dj, Kaishuin
Nat, Jacq, Jo, Ruishan
You Honestly can't see sathis' features.
Jo's red hair!
Kaishuin trying to educate us
They look like they are holding hands. but they aren't. hahaha.
Jo and Jacq
Outside general office. for no reason.
Before Bio lecture, jacq's camera has this function where it detects smiles and the camera just continues taking pictures. It was hilarious!
Chinese Lesson, where we do nothing at all.
Rachel the sleeping icon.
Dj
Emelia trying to crawl under the table.
Watching Heroes! - i'm stuck at episode 10 :(
Rolissa!
Wayne, Jacq, Nat
Nat, Jo
Jo, nat
Look at how Kaishuin and Sathis spoil the picture!
The bread i made during New year's eve.
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| Hello!
I had swim PE today. Wasn't that exciting. But Jacq, Ruishan and I were laughing like mad. Wish Joanna had came with us! I wasn't too happy with bangining my head into the pool wall - all the chemistry stuff that i had crammed for the chem test today would be gone! - and i wasn't too happy with the chlorine smell in my hair. ughhhh. I hope i pass my chem test, though chances are slim!
Chinese new year is coming and i'm really happy there's NO SCHOOL. though i have upcoming tests and homework to finish :( What a BORE!
Anyway I uploaded a million and one photos but the stupid xanga photomanager is lagging. Will post it soon. gdnight!
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